He's has come to be a good friend as we have much in common... he's a really interesting Russian dude, who speaks VERY good Mandarin, very good Swedish, Polish, English and moderate French and of course Ruski. (shockingly enough, I may be forgetting another language in that mix!)
He's also gay (which is a big secret, so SHHHH!) and SUPER interesting. (It's not really the safest thing for people to be gay in Russia)
Most importantly, he thinks deeply, which was exactly what I needed someone to do with me here. I'm glad I have him for that.
Anyway, in one of our intense conversations (usually they go on for quite some time, and we usually lose others who may have thought they were in a group conversation) we were talking about something or other and it led to him saying that we all have addictions.
We went through what we thought our addictions were, and I was at a loss, after "love" and "the internet" haha,....but then he said (and keep in mind that he's only known me for a couple of weeks and we've only hung out 3 times at that point) that he thinks I'm addicted to talking to people.
......oh my...
I was stunned into silence.
not only cause he was so spot on, but cause he was able to read me like no one has read me in a long time without knowing me....in a way that's raw, honest, objective and most importantly in a way that I didn't see coming. I LOVED that.
And he's SO right. ....it is truly something that I would feel REALLY uncomfortable without; see I even have this BLOG! I not only want to talk to you all, I feel the NEED to. I'm not sure why, but I just do. It's this urge....a needy urge! HAHA needy urgency! THAT should have been the title of this posting!
Seriously though, I don't think I could go for more than a couple of days without SOME kind of way to express myself even if it's as little as in my journal, but even then, I woudn't be able to wait to tell someone.
I think it's the reason I love the internet so much...The net is just another tool for communication. It's not the internet that I can't live without; it's what the internet allows me do. It's just another way for me to get my fix!
Anyway, I thought that was an interesting thing to note...
EXPRESS YOURSELF.
ok...I'm done expressing myself :)
until my next fix, sending lots of love
patey:]
4 comments:
For crying out loud! I'm having the hardest time using this internet thing! The last post was a W... only a w... I was trying to sign in and it posted. Darn.
Just thought I'd say that from a theological angle, I found your post really interesting. One of the foundation beliefs of Christianity is that God is a relationship (father, son, holy spirit), another is that we were created in his image.
So if God created us like him, then we're incomplete unless we are in communion with others, unless we're talking, interacting, living with others. The ultimate expression of this would be the sacrifice of Jesus to restore our friendship and re-open the conversation with God and the following resurrection as proof that his work was done.
I think that in a lot of ways - everyone is addicted to people. It's in our nature. Maybe not necessarily talking with people - but addicted to people none the less. Some will just act on it more then others. Others, who don't like people tend towards anthropomorphism and create friendships with their toy trains who they pretend are people.
Compared to that, I think your addiction to talking is healthy.
I thought you might enjoy my rant :)
hahaha i love this post. it's so funny when things are obvious, right in front of your nose and you don't realize it. i love it! hey i think it's great if you're addicted to people. it's a skill not many people have. maybe u can teach me someday. hell, it's better than the opposite. the other day someone called me a misanthrope.
It's ridiculous how much I love that cartoon.
Buahaha.
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