waiting for push

yep, I'm back.
with a hopeful vengence,

I've honestly been at sort of a loss for words on this blog. Just not knowing what to write about and how to even get back on the horse after so many months. I've been baaaad, I know it. I feel bad, but I can't beat myself up for not having the motivation. It's weird, because when I first got here, I was all blahlbah,

Ok, I'm just going to dive right in, like I never left:

- A couple of weeks ago, it was septeber 6th and I realized that it had been a whole year that I've been living at 10 Smolenskaya Uilitsa apt 248, cool huh? it was a strange realization..that I chose to stay another long while, and that I wouldn't have been there otherwise, and how slightly scary that is.

I've been sort of down in the dumps for a few months before I went to Montreal. This summer back home was the most rejuvenating rest I've had in a long time. I'm not just a bit more motivated but a little less daunted by the daily challenge that is living in Moscow (I finally let myself admit that it IS a challenge living in this city, and that's alright!).

Now I just see it as a good and learning experience that I'm letting myself experience this. I'm seeing a bit more of the old me, and I'm happy about that.

-The new school year is proving to be a challenge as well, there are quite a few behavioural cases, but which years won't give me that? Again, on the learning experience thing. It's alllll about what I can figure out from it, and truthfully, it's never the kids, or anyone else; it's always just our reactions to craziness. (There's this one kid; the most challenging of challenges; I think I've begun a good run for him, which I'm glad; updates later.)
Aside from that and all the hard parts, I FEEL like my second year is more experienced, more prepared and more confident. These are really important things...

as for the new personal year, I have so many trips planned, Montreal in November for a wedding (and maybe a haircut), Egypt (or many countries in europe) in October, a weekend in Italy (we have an open invitation to Naples!) and another in Prague if we don't go there in October. Most importantly, South Africa for 20 days over Xmas! How exiting! I can finally tick off more of those cities on my facebook thingie! (my guilty pleasure of facebook),

It's definitely an awesome time to be alive. I don't want to forget that, cause I'm always forgetting for some reason, and I didn't use to be that person,

HELLO inspiration!? Please don't leave again!!! We all need you!
ps: I'm definitely back this time,
pps: I'm reading "Eat, Pray, Love" and it's really good,
ppps: did you know that Font in French is "Police" ?!?! That's right, my French co-workers teach me so many cool things