giving up

my French partner quit last week...
well she's leaving officially during the x-mas break.

Basically, what I was afraid would happen to me (which hasn't...in fact, thankfully the opposite occured for me) happened to her.

She REALLY doesn't like the big city, the crowds in the metro, the job's ok but the kids are "capricieux" (which I've learned means...Particular...or picky ...or, well, there's just no good english translation..."annoyingly pickly")....she's made no real connections with people here, and she misses her boyfriend back at home.
All bad combinations.

I haven't really decided how I feel about this (not that what I think about it really matters,) but I spent some energy trying to help her since the get go...giving her tips, listening to her. She's just really unhappy, and that's ok...it is what it is...
It just really sucks cause I like her, and it's kind of a shame...but what are you gonna do? it's not meant to be.
The crazy thing is, that I asked her if she feels better knowing that she's going home soon...and she said not really; which only tells me how stressed she really is about everything. I guess this is what happens to small town girls who find themselves in humoungous anonymous cities.
It's a dangerous game....it could happen to anyone of us.
When I got here, she was the only other person who was closest in profile to me. In age, in circumstance....and she's dropped out!

I remember talking to her during the first months when she told me how much trouble she was having; I asked her if she would consider leaving, and she said No, cause it would kind of be like a failure, which I agreed with. ...but is it a failure if it's just what's right? I hope she doesn't feel that way... I want to say that, but it'll be the equivalent of me showing her a box and saying "don't look in this really cool box"...she'll probably want to look in the box and then think of herself as a failure.
Did that analogy make sense? it's 9:40pm and I'm EXHAUSTED. My WiFi is still acting up. at LEAST I have the internet, so it's not all that bad; I'm just awkwardly connected to a wire and typing on my orange sofa

I'm SO going to bed. Sorry this posting is kind of crappy; will try to write something cultural or at LEAST comical soon,
hugs for you,
lovelovelvleolvoeol
patey:]

PS: thanks for all the comments! whoo hoo! I should prompt more conversations on my blog! That last one got people who hadn't responded yet! whoo! Go friends!